In Martha Beck’s book, Dianna, Herself – An Allegory of Awakening, one task of awakening is to “tell the truth.”
“Start.. by simply writing down any thoughts that are making you miserable, and checking to see if their mirror opposites may actually be more true than the original statement.”
The Mirror – the mirror concept is making me miserable.
This is the concept where I own that my life is a direct reflection of my inner state. If anything shows up that’s icky … it comes from me. If it’s beautiful – mine too. Wrote about this in 2014 – “What You See Is What You Think.” Trusted it for decades. Seeing my inner in my outer gives me perspective when I’m judgmental, need motivation or when I project blame. Gives me joy when the sky is blue.
Lately, this concept is just making me mad. It’s exhausting, this being responsible for the crap. Yeah, yeah, yeah … if it’s still here I have more to do; oh poor pitiful me – waaah, I must deserve this shit… so take it. Well just Piss Off!
Now that I have more time on my hands to contemplate, meditate and look around in awareness – I’m seeing every freaking wart! But wait – Martha asked me to do something slightly different.
Consider if the mirror opposite of these thoughts “may actually be more true than the original statement.” … “tell the story a truer way … If a story liberates your soul, believe it. But if a story imprisons you, believe its mirror image.”
Bad story? Believe its mirror image.
Exhausting–being responsible for the crap → Refreshing–this power to make change
If it’s still here I have more to do → If it’s still here, time to let it go
Poor pitiful me → Noble worthy me
I deserve this shit → I deserve love
Take it → Give it
While kicking around this idea – I started taking selfies with our new puppy. Interesting … I noticed the backward mirror vision as I snapped the photos. What we see in the mirror isn’t exactly what’s there. It’s backwards. What we see in the mirror is backwards. Hah! – Quite the “aha” moment.
Truthfully though, without my friends reminding me of all the stuff I already know I might go bat-shit crazy. Even with this knowing moment, I STILL whined to my dear friend on a particularly hard day owning my junk – junk I was sure I’d already conquered. She graciously reminded me I’m on a journey; and sent me a cool Barry Gillespie quote.
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“The more you know, the more you know you don’t know.” ― Aristotle
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